Nawazuddin Siddiqui once had suicidal thoughts, depression after a break-up; read details
First Published Dec 8, 2020, 1:27 PM IST
In an interview, Nawauddin Siddiqui revealed about his struggling days and anxiety, read more
Bollywood's talented actor Nawazuddin Siddiqui's biography, An Ordinary Life written by Rituparna Chatterjee, talked about the actors' personal life and relationships. The book grabbed headlines because it revealed explosive details, which included many actresses.
In the book, Nawauddin Siddiqui revealed about his struggling days and how he fought with anxiety. He also shared that due to lack of funds, he went into the state of depression once.
Not just that, he also thought of ending his life, He says in the book, "Living in Mira Road meant that the local train was our lifeline. We were at the station almost all the time. Soon after her call, one day I was at the station and stood there staring at the tracks. A train was coming, screaming its arrival with a lusty horn. It would be simple and instant. Should I jump onto the tracks and end it all? End this struggle, end this life? I had nothing. No love, no work, no money."
But sense prevailed, and a 'metaphorical slap' shook him out of his reverie. He decided at that point that he would never be emotional in any relationship. And never again was he 'that vulnerable, not even with my wife'.
In an interaction with Hindustan Times about his struggling days, he said, “I have always had mazdoor-like hardworking, fighting spirit. I don’t think that I am bigger than them. I had the same intentions as theirs. I didn’t dream of becoming a star. My only intention was to survive and earn for the next meal. It continued for 10 years. I did odd jobs and walked to my friend’s house for food. There were difficult times but we were happy even then. But ya, I did feel depressed at times because of lack of work. Depression and frustration start when you dream big.”
In the same interview he also talked about the time when suicidal thoughts entered his mind and he succumbed with the thoughts of taking his own life. He said to the same portal, “I used to walk to my friend’s house, without train, for food and walk back on foot. Because I wasn’t eating well so I was getting weak and my hair started falling off. I used to get tired after walking 2 km. I felt as if I am going to die soon. Because of which I used to stay out all day to see the world because I didn’t know how many days will I survive,”
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